What Steps to Freedom showed me this weekend was that men of the Kingdom can come from any kind of background or upbringing, come together under the all-powerful name of Jesus Christ, lay all of our deepest sins on the line with no judgment, and walk in the freedom Christ gave us from his death on the cross.
Since my years as a young boy, I have been submerged in the struggles of lust, masturbation, and porn. I chose to invest so much time into this addictive, shallow, and unfulfilling lifestyle. For years, I hid this darkness from everyone around me and continued to believe I could white knuckle approach this issue for the rest of my life. Little would I realize that 11 years later in my life, I would for the first time lay everything of my past on the line, and embrace being uncomfortable. As I am typing this, what came to my thoughts is, "growth and comfort don't coexist", because times of discomfort require you to be stretched and challenged to do what is beyond your capabilities and live in Christ's abilities.
Going through the Dangerous Men and the Steps of Freedom has meant so much to me as I have both grown in my faith and as a man. As I have gone through the Dangerous Men, I have grown so close to those who are now the closest friends I have ever had, and they have given that community and that support that is needed to grow and fight off temptations that plague us all together. The Steps of Freedom has been an amazing opportunity to walk through that freedom that only Jesus's cleansing blood can bring, and both times I have been through the Steps has brought new things to mind but the same awesome realization of forgiveness. I am so blessed to have the opportunity to be a part of such an amazing group and one that will truly shape my life for years to come.
This retreat has been about so much more than fighting lust. You have given me a holistic way to fight any and every sin in my life. Confessing to Jesus my sins was never an area that came easy. It’s so incredibly freeing because I'm walking around holding onto sin God's already forgiven.